Thoughts

Hi all, I know I have been away. But it feels great to be back. And here I am again, back to blogging. This post is about nothing. No...I am serious. This post is really about nothing. Just a random mixture of thoughts which linger in my head. What happened, what happens and what will happen. If you people think that I have gone crazy and bonkers, you are right to a great extent. This is not a joke.

Have you ever felt trapped? Like you want to be free and can't because something you want is with the one who is withholding your freedom? I so wish I could be free. Free of everything. All expectations, boundaries, and limitations. I wish I could do whatever I felt like, and be content.
Now when we speak of contentedness, which word pops into your mind? Happiness of course. What is the difference? Some would say, a man is happy who has all he wants. A man is content if he satisfied with all he has. So true. Happiness can be lost easily. Contentedness however stays. I have never been content in my life, ever. Have you?

Right this moment something tempts me to write of sleep. Sleep is a state of mind in which there are no boundaries. One can do as one likes. No boundaries, no expectations and no limits. The beautiful world of dreams seems so welcoming. I say that I am tempted to write of sleep, as right this moment my eyes are drooping and I wish I could go to bed right away. But why am I here then? Any guesses? Well let me tell you. I am here because I want to express myself. My inner self which has been silent for so many days. Which wants to be free. Which wants to come out and roam about. Which wants to play, and enjoy the world. But has been curtailed by certain factors. But this inner self of mine will be free soon, or so I hope.

For the shorter term, the better remedy would be to go and sleep. In the longer term, I have to learn how to be content. How to be free, how to truly enjoy the precious gift of life. How do you define life? For me, at this point of time, life is career. For a student, life is education. But is that it? Life.....such a small word, with such a deep meaning. I wish my life was better. What does this statement mean? It means that I am not contented. I am sad, and want to be happy.
But being happy isn't a sin is it? If I had the power, I would make everyone happy. But then if we look at it more seriously, it would turn out to be disastrous like in Bruce Almighty.
So for someone to be happy, the next person has to be sad. Law of conservation of happiness. Well there we go, we have a new law. And I hereby declare the copyright for this, anyone using this law anywhere is liable to compensate me accordingly.

So what does the law say? For one person to be happy, the next person has to be sad. What if I am very happy? Does that mean I made too many people sad? It really does. Ever read the story "The Umbrella Man"? The umbrella man is a character who steals umbrellas from random pubs (different pub every time), dupes innocent people into buying the stolen umbrellas and drinks off the money. So he made so many umbrella owners sad just to make himself very happy. Does that mean, people who got the umbrellas were happy? I can bet, they would have gone home, and forgotten about the umbrella this cunning fellow gave them, until it rained again of course.

The past few months have really been a roller coaster for me. I have been on hunting expeditions. On wild goose chases, and even in combat. I know its vague, but that's what I am trying to do. Will come up with the details in the next post hopefully. Till then, Adios.